It has felt like a very long and stressful day.

ok the stress hasn't been half as bad as it usually is, but when you don't want to be somewhere and you have to be there then it doesn't help matters much.

Especially when a passing comment you make in all innocence, upsets someone who is in a vulnerable place right now.

Fortunately it is all sorted now, apologies have been said, hugs exchanged, but doesn't make me feel any better in fact it makes me feel like the worst human being on Earth.

And why beat myself up over it.

Because I hate upsetting people. pure and simple and because the person concerned didn't need me sniping at her when she is feeling so low.

But the past is past and it is time to move on and start afresh.

Came home to a mess, kids have been home before me and all hell has let loose. Nigel is picking them up something to eat on the way home from their Wing Chung class as I have not long been in and not been able to cook anything before they go. Honestly you would think that they could have cooked themselves something before hand but that seems to be impossible, they were waiting for me.

My longest day.

The day when I am late home.

Hmm.

So i now have the house to myself, I should do some exercise but don't feel like it, I feel fat, I feel lazy I cannot be bothered to move.

Dieting gone out of the window last couple of days don't seem to control all those voices in my head.

Right off I am going before I upset anyone else:)