As I look out of the window, in the dark, I can hear the rain hitting the window pane.

Great, raining still.

And it isn't just a gentle pitter patter, it is the type that drenches you as you step outside the door - great fun not.

Keep thinking never mind it will soon start to get lighter, the weather will get better, but what if we have a wet spring/summer? I can't think of anything worse, I am fed up with it all!

Nigel is 45 today. I am going to take him for lunch at lunchtime then he is off to watch Spurs play Cardiff later so a quiet evening at home with the kids for me. We will celebrate his birthday as a family at the weekend, by going out for a meal, something we tend to do after all another year older, another year wiser, you survived another year therefore celebrate with a meal out lol!:)

Hoping for a better day today than yesterday. It was dreadful. One of the worst I have been through in a while. By the time I got home from work, meetings etc it was was 8.15 and I was shattered and hungry. A satisfying cucumber and pickled red cabbage roll satisfied the hunger pains (yeah who am I kidding I just couldn't be bothered to cook at that time)I decided to head off to bed where I spent the night tossing and turning while the days events went through my head, how I could have done things differently, would anyone notice the mess I made chairing the meeting, How rude was I to one person, how could I resolve it, what was I going to do and yet would it make a difference?

I know I am rambling here. To clear up I wasn't intentionally rude, just think what I did could be considered rude and really upshot is I shouldn't have chaired the meeting, I should have just sent in belated apologies and not gone - afterall I had forgotten about the other meeting I should have been at and didn't turn up to!

Ah well today is another day. There is nothing I can do about what has happened. I have sent an email apologising to the person I was unintentionally rude to, that is all I can do. Thoughts still going through head though and I feel so bad, but time moves on and it has been an experience I never want to repeat again.

Right now that I have bored you to tears, off I go now to get ready for work and attempt to face the pouring rain:)