I have been in and out all day trying to find things that I need to put this scrap book together and no luck. Tomorrow I am going to head to Hobby craft in Milton Keynes to see if I can find something that I need. I have pictures in my head of what I want it to look like, eventually, and I have done some designs on the computer, badly, but I know what I want and can I get it? Really is it too much to ask for scrap book items to be a little manly? Nothing girly, nothing blue with babies on it, nothing with flowers or decorated in pinks and purples?

It is enough to make you scream!!!

Thanks to Molt, spent last night tossing and turning with 'don't give up' going round my head, knew I shouldn't have looked at his post

Now to top it off, I have to drive to Edgware for one of Nigel's mates 50th birthday party! As if I haven't got enough to do I have to go out as well, be pleasant, when I would rather stay at home in the warm. Upside is most of the footballing wives won't be there, preferring to avoid going out or having other commitments so my fear of having to sit there and listen to skinny women moan about what diet they are on, calculating how many sandwiches/sausage rolls I eat and telling me how many calories on my plate will be avoided then. I will not have to listen to them moan about their kids or compare them to each otheres - 'Johnny is now studying Algebra and is top in his class' One will say and the other one will reply that little Jessica is studying Quantum Physics and is top of her year group she is so bright - you know how it goes.

Instead, I am the mug who will be designated driver, Nigel and his mates will drink the British Legion dry while I make fun out of them propping up the bar. They are a merry lot when together, I can tell you what the conversation will be - work, how badly spurs are playing, work, how useless Martin Joel is, work, analysing the football players, work, how crap they played the other day. I will flirt, with the best friend as usual, I will dance and wriggle my hips, I will give them all a kiss on the cheek and say goodbye as I drag hubby out at closing time and drive home

Now all I have to do is decide what to wear, nothing fits properly, and try and get rid of this stye on my eye which is making my eye so sore and red. NO contact lenses for me for a while, and I hate wearing glasses when I am going out partying, even if I don't particularly want to go!

Oh and I just wish it would stop bloody raining!!!