There are times in my life when I wonder what the heck is this all for.
Don't worry this isn't a maudling or post to make you think about life, it is just one of those musing that run through ones head at times.
Take for instance yesterday.
There I was gaily doing the weekly shop as we had nothing in the house, hubby decided to accompany me and get in the way, adding things we didn't need into the trolley while I took them out again and getting more exasperated. WHEN he goes off in one of his silly moods in the aisle and I snap "for god's sake will you grow up it is worse than taking the kids shopping with you sometimes!" just as one of the teachers from work appears round the corner of the aisle!
She smirks and looks at Nigel then me while I make small talk as you do and he continues to act like a two year old making silly comments and trying to decide which milk to buy (like we don't buy the same type week in week out for the last 19 years!!!)
Then there was the form that was handed out at work asking us what year group we wanted to work in next year, which we also had to give reasons for as well, a total nightmare for me as I like the yeargroup I am in, I love the age group of the children but youngest will be in that year group next year as well so I know that I will not get that year group but the one I don't want! Of course I am only second guessing what will happen, but I have a shrewd idea what will happen!
Ok so life isn't simple it never was and never will be. There are things that will happen that we will not be happy with, there are things that will not happen that we wanted. It always has been that way and nothing will change that, what will be will be. Despite all the problems I have had reacently, I love my job and I love where I work. Of course there are other schools in the area, but we have a camaraderie that is rarely found elsewhere and as a result it would be hard to move on elsewhere. Of course there are other avenues that are open to me, but I like the holidays that being in a school offers as well and while the kids are still young (well the youngest anyway) it suits. To go anywhere else I would have to retrain and being a teacher holds no appeal to me at all. I know that I would like to go into a job where I would help people again training would be involved obvious
So for now I am in no man's land in a way, waiting to hear where I will be next year and whether I need to move on or not. There is a possibility there will be redundancies in a year or so and really decisions need to be made. Hopefully I can get through what remains of this year and then decide, once I know what is happening, what to do.
Right enough of this, time for a cuppa!
