Right I am signing off for now, given up tearing place apart for this receipt and think I have caught up with what has been happening in blogland while I was away!

However before I go, I just want to thank those 188 visitors who passed by for reading my blog on average 10.25 times today. It is most appreciated

Hugs and good night to you all.

Aren't they just the best ever!!!!

Yummy!!

Eldest son comes downstairs about five minutes ago.

"Grandma phoned earlier" he says.

"when?"

"About 12 ish"

Thanks for that bit late to phone her now says I.

There are times when I wonder where his brain is.

Hope it wasn't important.

A young couple wanted to join a church. The reverend told them, "We have special requirements for new parishioners. You must abstain from sex for one whole month." The couple agreed and after two-and-a-half weeks returned to the Church. When the Pastor ushers them into his office, the wife is crying and the husband obviously very depressed. You are back so soon... Is there a problem?" the Reverend inquired. "We are terribly ashamed to admit that we did not manage to abstain from sex for the required month..." the young man replied sadly. The Reverend asked him what happened. "Well, the first week was difficult.... However, we managed to abstain through sheer willpower. The second week was terrible, but with the use of prayer, we managed to abstain." "However, the third week was unbearable. We tried cold showers, prayer, reading from the Bible.... anything to keep our minds off carnal thoughts. One afternoon, my wife reached for a can of paint and dropped it. When she bent over to pick it up, I was overcome with lust and had my way with her right then and there," admitted the man, shamefacedly. "You understand this means you will not be welcome in our church," stated the Reverend. "We know.." said the young man, hanging his head.. "We're not welcome at Homebase either...

Ok I admit I was stupid

Bought camcorder for hubby as a Christmas present from Jessops in Town, which is now closing down.

Camcorder, when it plays back, keeps coming up with a mosaic picture.

Done the cleaning of the heads several times, even tried changing tapes but it still keeps happening.

So into Jessops we go where they advise up to take camera and receipt to the next branch that is not closing down.

Cannot find receipt.

I know I wouldn't have thrown it away - I have receipts that I have piled through going back to 2005!!!

Jessops did however give me a customer number but couldn't find any other details of my purchase.

Aha, thinks I , will look through my bank statements.

But as I trawled through them i realised I paid with cash because I didn't want Nig to see how much I had spent if he accidentally saw the bank statement!

There is the stupid bit - moral of story pay by bloody card next time!!!!!

Only hope if I flutter eyelashes at whoever serves me in jessops they will be kind

Today I am not quite sure how I feel.

Depressed yes and not my usual funny self at all.

Think seeing myself in a few photos and on tape hasn't helped, God I look so bloody huge, really depressed about all that.

Not sleeping isn't helping either.

Same dream for the past week about the same person, reaching out to me(?) or at least someone, crying in despair and I am watching, like I am not part of my body, just floating and looking on. Behind the person is a shadow, feels evil in fact everything feels bad about it all. As I try to reach out another person, someone I have seen before tells me no not now and I wake up sweating.

I feel that something is not right.

i feel at a loss

I feel bloody stupid, and no I haven't been at the cheese, reading thrillers or watching horror movies.

The person who tells me no has been in my dreams before, he says that to me everytime I see something that I shouldn't or like he is protecting me, I have no idea who it is, but he has been there before, except the dreams were pleasanter, not like this one. This one is bad. Same thing over and over again. Feel like something is going to happen just wish I knew what.

Hubby concerned, takes me to friends house earlier to cheer me up, did a bit but mainly him and her talking while I was lost in thought. we did discuss our trip next year though so that was good.

In other news hunting for a receipt going back to November of last year that I put in a safe place and can't remember where, so that we can get the camrecorder sorted out as it is still not working properly. Also got to try and find a receipt for my new camera as well though that is just so I can put it in a safe place with some other stuff for when we go to Florida next year, just read somewhere about being stopped by customs and having to pay VAT if you can't prove goods were bought over here before you went. Better to be safe than sorry I suppose

Right enough of this freak show, better get a move on and sort out this paperwork!