After sending Juzzy my year in review earlier this week, I was sitting here thinking just what did happen this year.

This year has been in want of a word or two, Higgledy Piggledy. Lots of highs and lows, work being one of the lows, back problems, neck problems and an accident with a transit van that has left me in pain and not enjoying driving as much as I used to. The fact that I had to move my child from school as he wasn't progressing.

One of The best highs this year is meeting a few people from blogland at a couple of mini blog meets. Meeting new people for me is really difficult especially when I am by myself without my comfort balnket or husband behind me holding my hand. Self confidence and esteem I lack. I am jelly inside this confident body. I convince myself for days that everyone will hate me that I will say something to offend, that no one will speak to me, they will hate my laughter, the fact I giggle too much, yet that wasn't the case at all and to those people who made me feel welcome and wanted, may I say thank you for everything. That made my year, it helped me to overcome certain barriers and to start to put things into perspective a bit more.

of course the low self esteem is still there, it always will be but it is getting easier.

I am also thankful I have spent another year with my family and husband. Nigel and I, on the fifth of next month, will have been together 20 years. Our first date which was on that evening in January where we spent so much time talking about everything, feeling nervous and worried about what each of us will think of the other and yet, since that evening we have never been apart and if we did have to leave each other, well what a great invention the phone is, because then we talked and talked for hours on end. Lots of people who saw how quickly our relationship developed told us that we wouldn't last, but we did and still have respect and love for each other. NOt a day goes by without me coundting my blessings as he has been through the worst with me. He picked me up at a time when I was at my lowest, when something happened that nearly took me over the edge of my depression and stood by me. He helped me through it all and he is my rock, to him I say thank you I love you and always will.

The highs this year outweigh the lows in some ways, and I hope that they will continue into the new year that way for everyone:)